Ahoy There! I'm Haneen Ibrahim, a mad Linguist, who teaches children, cheers for FC Barcelona and reads a bit too much, and lately a BTS ARMY.
I also mix all that in the goblet whenever I return from a voyage in a parallel universe by the TARDIS and come up with some crazy fiction, this I guess makes me a writer in the real world.
State Of Day.Just finished watching the Greatest Showman, dazzling film. Hold
your breath and wait for Jenny Lind’s heart stealing performance of “Never
Enough.” Playing her role the stunning Rebecca Ferguson.
You know, I was sick for most of the day. I exhausted myself
after a 4 hour car trip by doing serious house chores the next day. I could’ve
taken care of myself a little bit more, but the truth is I just didn’t care.
These days I’m feeling down more often than up. My optimistic
nature and faith keeps pulling me from the ditch every time but I just keep falling
much deeper. I may be going through a depression cycle, not new of course. Except
there is something different this time.
Sometimes these days I don’t seem to know what I want or who
I am anymore. Am I suffering from an identity crisis? At this age?!
But I do feel my life is slipping through my fingers
unnoticed, unrecorded, unappreciated. Just slipping. I feel old and ancient. Tired.
When I first thought about the Sea Captain I was an oversensitive
teenager with an imagination that runs wild all day every day. I was filled with
large dreams and was curious about everything and ready to be owed by all I came
I was in college when the Sea Captain became me. My fictional
self. And man what a life she lead.
She?…she is a larger than life character, a brave, inspiring,
admirable young woman. Her voice is haunting, her words memorable. A true
leader, someone the people in her world look up to. She’s far from perfect but is
everything I wish to be and have. I created her to escape my difficult reality,
I never expected her residency in my head will bring me such chronic pain
But me…myself, my real life is far from that. Back then when
I was a teenager I had dreams…till today they are still that, dreams. And that
is indeed a sad fact.
I know I sound morbid today, but this is our last voyage together in this blog (the Sea Captain and me) and I wanted to leave yet another genuine and personal piece of